Finally!

So we have been waiting and waiting for the welfare investigator to come and finally today he came. He was really nice and we should hopefully hear something from our worker in a few days. We don't expect to get Cash aid for more then October and November since The Hunners didn't start getting his unemployment until last week but that money will give us what we need to get the van taken care of so when the next week an a half flies by we will actually be able to sleep in the van. Jonathan is thinking of going over the road again and if he manages to find something I really don't want to be sleeping in the van alone. So I don't know what is gonna happen. I do not take welfare lightly. We only applied for cash aide after a month of not finding any jobs. We are not the kind of people to take from the Government just because we can. We are very needful right now and that is what it is there for. So if you read this please understand that we are not the people who take advantage of the system. I don't feel good being on the system. So I definitely don't abuse it!

If I strangle My husband Due To Starvation is it murder???

Ok so its the end of the month and we are SUPER low on food. This is the worse month it has been in a long time, why? Could be because my skinny mother eats like she has a tape worm, or we bought for two other people and didnt get as much meat as we usually do because my sisters freezer is so dang small. Whatever the reason it sucks! So we have no money until tomorrow and nobody to barrow from. So there has been a lone can of pork and beans in the pantry for a week at least. I tell my hubby I am going to eat it, he threw a FIT! So I didnt eat them. Today they are still there, he hasn't eatten them, well I was going to eat them, 'Oh so you are going to eat them? After I said I was going to eat them." So he pisses me off and I decide screw you I am not eating anything! So they go in the fridge and he still sits there in front of the TV playing Madden 25! He is lucky this isn't our house or he would be wearing the damn pork and beans!

My Pelvic Ultrasound and MIssing Period all in the same week.

So I have been doing a  ton of reading and even though I already knew about CM I am now an expert on the differences (according to What To Expect Before You're Expecting) and realized that according to my CM I should be BD with DH. Well by the end of the night next morning it looked like AF was here. UGH! I was angry thinking I wouldn't be able to have my pelvic ultrasound but I called the imagining office and they said to still come in they do them all the time. Luckily Im not having a heavy flow yet so it wasn't to bad. Now I have to wait til next Wednesday to see my OBGYN for results finding out if I really have PCOS and what is going on with my Baby Making Gear. So AF came yesterday off and on, at least I'm thinking that's why I'm bleeding a bit but since i haven't had it since July I was expecting heavy like it was then. Oh well I will just go with the 'Flow'. The Hunners had an ultrasound on his 'Boys' this morning after my appointment. He still needs to take in a sperm sample but he says he will wait until we have more gas to go to the lab he has to turn it in at as well as the lab I need to do my blood draw at. The waiting game begins and I have SO many thoughts and questions. I am thinking of starting another blog just for this journey to baby. Maybe it will help other women. I am about to read the blog of The Story Of Ben. So maybe I will get some ideas on how to do it better then this one flows. Have a great one!

Discovered through reading

So while I was waiting at the Department of Social Services I was reading my book What to Expect Before You're Expecting and found another medical condition that screams THIS IS ME! Hypothyroidism- thinning hair, depression, weight gain, dry skin, low energy, constipation, irregular and abnormal periods, and problems getting pregnant. This as well as the PCOS have soooo many symptoms that are what I have been going through for the last at least 8 years and have never been tested for! WTH! I am so glad that my new doctor is so awesome. I am going to call his office and ask if he had me tested for this yet and if not can he order it for me. I am pretty sure he would agree! I just dont understand why my other doctor didnt order these tests years ago I will never know. Whats the point of having insurance if they don't take care of you? OK well Im gonna head on over to my Baby Center groups and check in with the ladies there going through what I am. Have a great one!

Being Poor Sucks!

So ya since my first divorce I had been off and on with the Welfare system here. I would get lucky and find a good job and get off of aide until the job ended for whatever reason. Then I got remarried and my husband worked so we didn't need benefits. But since he and I have both been out of work we have been on Food Stamps and Medical. Since Unemployment has taken so long we decided to apply for cash aide for at least three months, or until I find a job or unemployment kicks in which ever happened first. Well in California a welfare investigator has to come out to make sure you are living with and where you say you are. OK no problem, please come I am not hiding anything, oh wait was I supposed to report the cats? Oops. Anyway they were given our house number and told that the cell phone is off so not a good number to use. The worker writes it down. I had to turn in the last of the paper work today so asked about the investigator. They looked it up and said that the investigator already attempted contact and that the cell phone number wasn't good. Well NO FREAKING DUH!!!!! So she made a note and said she would ask them to resubmit the request. So because they screwed up we are still waiting for the so much needed cash aide. My husband donates plasma twice a week because that's the limit they allow, for gas just to get my son to and from school and us to our doctors appointments, not to mention bread and milk. THIS SUCKS!

Dunno What To Title This One.

Good Morning. No sleeping in the morning either! Well the hubby made me two over easy egg sandwiches and I had a coffee cup full of fat free milk. Then I had to muck that all up with some garlic Ritz crackers while I read my Johanna Lindsey Novel! Oh well I guess I will balance that out with cereal for lunch. I am going for a walk this evening after dinner whether I have to go alone or not. I explained to the Hunners last night that I am changing the things in my life that i have control over and my health is the main thing I can do something about. So that is that. You should have seen his face when I told him eventually I wanted to start running. He said that he was losing weight with what he was doing. Just laying around eating healthier. I want to be under 300lbs in 4 years so I gotta be more proactive. So yea. This week we have ultrasounds to do and I have labs for two doctors to do. After that I think we are done this week with Doctors. Next week I will have to go through the uterine scrape and at that time I will hopefully get the results of my ultrasound. Then I will go from their. HOPEFULLY this appointment will also result in new medication to jump start my periods! Wish me luck!

I love my husband But....

Grrrr my husband can drive me nuts! He is step dad and only dad to my son and has been for the last 3 almost 4 years. He has never been a parent before and he is to hard on my son and even though I know he loves him and my son loves him back, he just doesn't understand parenting. He wont take parenting classes and when I suggest that he take them he throws it at me that I am not the best mom and I need to take them too. He infuriates me so bad. I can never have a conversation with him about things he may be doing wrong or tell him how I feel without him taking it as a personal attack! Its ridiculous! I'm tired of people trying to make me the other parent. I AM HIS MOM! I GAVE BIRTH TO HIM! BACK OFF!!!!