Fertility Issues and Medical Mismanagement.....

So I have decided that our medical insurance really sucks. Being told that no insurance covers fertility issues yet ALL of them cover BIRTH CONTROL is ridiculous. I am a WOMAN and I want to Have a BABY and I should be able to talk to my doctor about this issue and I should get all the help he can give me in trying to have a baby. I am turning 36 tomorrow and I have an AMAZING son who is turning 12 this year. When My baby boy was only 5 months old I had an ectopic pregnancy and was devastated. My husband and I divorced not long after and I have not been able to get pregnant since. I was single for 6 years and after that I had a long distance boyfriend that didnt get the job done either the few times we seen each other, and I am glad. I wouldnt want that life time connection with him. But I have been married now since 2010 and we have never used birth control and have yet to get pregnant. My periods have been off since my ectopic pregnancy but I never went to the doctor about it because we didnt always have insurance. But now that I am all they can help me with is the missing periods. So once that is fixed I am going to have to start checking into office visit prices or if my OBGYN will discuss this topic with me under a different visit 'label'. I really hate the feeling I get when I hear someone I know is pregnant. Of course I am happy for them but then I hurt so much. I felt I was jealous and that made me feel so guilty! I pray about it and ask forgiveness because I really dont like feeling that way. I am just going to take this step by step and get the Aunt Flow issue taken care of and then move on to the next step. Hopefully before Im 37 Ill be preggers!